You haven't seen the world

sometimes i wonder , what is it that i can't let go off. why am i so dumb to stay in the dark. yeah, i may feel so lonely but is it worth all those mean stuff. why is it that the very one nice thing covers 100 of the mean things. its stupid.. sometimes i wonder, why am i here. why am i living ? we are always facing problems. Small or big ones. first when you are young you face problems like learning to walk and calling out Mummy and daddy . then when you become a toddler you have problem going to kindergarden, afraid of teachers,afraid of friends. then when you are primary schooling you worry about how you buy food in canteen. how to score well for exams. and older when you you can choose your friends, you have problem with them. worrying if you have trusted the right person. then PSLE worry bout ur results. worry bout teachers scolding. then when you move on to the next chapter of your life.worry if you are not in your ideal school ,then mixing with tthe wrong group of friends then worrying bout troubles that you got into. if you get into ur ideal school! you worry bout coping with work. worrying bout adapting with new friends worry bout ur results your CCA & bgr. then as you continue to 16 yr old teen you worry bout where you'll go next to take olevels whether you'll do well. whether you can make it to your dream college of poly. so when you move on! you worry bout school! then you may have a stable relationship but still you'll worry, worry if your guy/girl will be bored with you worry bout school. worry bout friends keeping ur reputation. argh then when you are out to the real world! you worry bout money worry bout marraige. move on to marraige you worry bout leaving your paerents. worry bout work, finance, childeren.

ARGH! whatever it is there's always worries. so now what's life? enjoy? yeah maybe for a short while.

hmmm another week passed. life is still so hectic! played against Hougang on Thu. won 57-1(: we played better this time(: school! class is still as INTERESTING as before! all i know is that i seem to have screwed my chineses test! ARGH! i really wanna do well! really wanna start the year well but haii. nvm i'll keep going! school will start to lax soon next week after clearing most test! have to be back at school tmr for P6 development programme siann.

oh & watched Hachiko! great show! LOVE & LOYALTY!

& there i go again, thinking of stuff that will never be the same again.

haiz! im leaving home soon! for ann frank project.! i hope for a better week ahead.. goodbye readers.

so ya, skip that Lao Shi part.. zz

Zones! we played quite well in game 1 but didnt do well in game 2! This week. i actually understood Noraida better! i really repect her alot! tsk.. haiya. school seems to be so hectic! i hardly have any quiet time on my own. even when im in the room. no privacy at all. idk how long i am able to take this but i really hope for the better to come! training is gonna get tougher each day with all the runs and stuff but i love training! still its the best part. & too, i love Netballl more and more each day!(:

Awards night! Liz & Qee won the rising star awards! Soo Happy for them! then the food part is where the photo taking part comes YAY(: Oh & i owe Vik and Nana jelly beans because i bet them that its untrue! but idk why and how it was true. but its so impossible. haha but i tookk quite alot of pics(: hahah. i look forward to the next awards night! WEEE hahahah!

school! 2 test passed! Math and Geog. YAY. but still like 4 more to go. its okay! but i've got a feeling that results will not be ideal. argh! now im looking forward to thurs for a next game! i wanna play my best! like seriously.

tsk tsk. im soo tired of fighting. but i still gonna fight til the end.. haha! People around seems different. like so distant. idk why. but still i would never feel alone. hai..

ohkay! i hope i'll get my lap top sooon!:D and im looking forward to CNY(: meeting up with those i hardly meet(:  kk idk what else to post! oh! i wanna watch Hachikko!!D: soon!

some pictures(:Mus! Jowong!Ivan! (:

& yes! week 4 finally passed! we started Zonals!(: 1st game with Sembawang : 56-2 and 2nd with Woodlands Ring :37-0

Awards night on Wed(: it was fun!:D this week Lao Shi was really unreasonable! TSK!-.- i just ask bout small stuff and i get shoutings from her and sometimes really insulting stuff!! im starting to dislike her more! before 2010 i told myself ill be good in her class bt she just makes it so hard! she's always the one that's right! WTH! Argh! im annoyed!

hey! hello readers! i had a boring day today i was at home all the way! oh excepet those 5 mins downstair buying stuff to fill my tummy. hahah! kk had dinner already. ate pipagao. tickling throat! ee i hate this feeling. argh! im gonna sleep in my brother's room once again.

Hope he'll be back tmr and i can guarantee there'll be alot of nagging once again. haiyo.

Daddy, you should let him make his own decisions though, he's old enough if you think what he did is wrong then advice him nicely and if he still doesn't wanna change after upteen times of telling, then let him be. let him take charge of his own life, he'll learn as he grow. i know you wont see this anyway but i wanna tell you this, but i wouldn't dare to speak up , but i will, soon i hope..

Kor, you should seriously sometimes start thinking bout your future. Thinking if what Daddy said made sense.Self-reflect on how you can improve your daily life , how sleeping early and be in time for school helps! Reflection is all you need, you're a smart person so don waste your talent. change, be a better student, friend ,brother and son!haha. this is just my thoughts, if you are actually reading.

third week of school just passed. but to me it seems so long. it seems like its continuing with Mod 8 last year. i cant feel my hols. i'm so tired. tired of things, of working, of certain ppl.. so drained. i wanna talk to someone so badly but it'll never happen. training is still fine getting tougher and tougher each day. i hardly have time on my own. i haven't really felt those happiness like last year. i feel so alone. the team is okay, but it seems like we aeren't as close as we can be. some ppl is still putting themselves first and those they think they can't lose. some are just in their own land. and me! so tired everyday. i wanna be happy, i wanna be. but it just seems so difficult. argh whatever it is , i'll play hard , trying to study hard. this Tue is the beginning of my main reason why im in the Singapore Sports School. i wanna make my decision worthwhile at least at the sports part.

& i hope for a better week ahead.

& yes , imy.

Go Whites!

kk i woke bout 930 cause weiqi called me once she woke up to go 313 with her-.- then talked then went back to sleep.. i didn't go in the end . lunched with my parents then home then bout 5 went to pp and to popular:D and i bought a black bag. just plain black bag. ate pretzal icecream then home again. washed up dinner and here i am! what a boring day! tsk tsk ): i haven done any work yet! ): Omg . all Miss Foo's english -.- piority man! haha kk i shall go dictionar.com now hahah!

TATA:D

.... the movie was so sad. it got me back to thinking. i  don wanna "kill myself" tsk tsk. but its running through my mind damn damn damn ):

Its sad. it really is. ): so much bout how you should cherish life. thinking that some people out there fighting soo hard just to live, seriously death was a better choice. the people around you,cherish them you never know when you're gonna see them again. sister's keepers. (:

Hmmm. how should i start?! Well this week was a rather hectic but fufiling week(: very tough , tiring but i like it it kept me occupied i didn't really have time to think of unnecessary stuff. so im quite proud of myself cause i havent typed that number for almost a week:D  i almost almost did ytd but no no was tired haha! but whatever it is , if u are still reading this, i don how you feel so im sorry if i misintepreted you last week sorry if i said things that hurts. haha. its not important to me anymore la just occupying a mini space at the back of my mind! now i just really wanna play good netball! i wanna help Amelia to be better! i wanna work towards my ideal streaming subjects for next year! Woah seriously man! is so tough, studies!  To take Pure scienc must have 70% for math and science to take A math must get 70% for math Omg. i'll try ah! fortunately i realised it at mod 1! so like have plans already hohoho! i wanna take combine humalities- geog + ss ( compulsory-.-) most prob P.e cause i don want A math ): then working for pure bio + pure chem. really no intrest in physics eh): 

okk! its difficult but i'l try try try!! (:

KK

Netballing Goals for My teammm:D

~North Zone's Champs.

~ Nationals Top 3 :D

GO TEAM GO!!!! Sports Schoooooooool! GO FIGHT WIN , HOOOO!!!  Omg our new cheer is sooo coool:D

oh well, firstly i don't feel first week at all haha! many many things happened, more bad then good! but still im okaay. ohk, so where should i start from-.- check in day!; was temperature person. LOL had fun with the Jimmy uncle guy LOL saw many new , innocent faces. haha.well. okay, i lazy say day by day basically ; training ; Gym ; -.- stupid annoying circuit-.- say not so tiring all, do til i became so jelly HAHA. finish first set wanna give up already LOL! played game scenarios with juniors:D ZONES gonna start so damn damn soon!!yay yay yay!! hahah. other than that everything else was okay!:D

Studies; Okay.. started teaching already, Miss Foo's class was really brain sorming.-.- but some of her expression of things really makes me laugh-.- so weird !  Mr Thomas, boring but patient, understandable :D did lots of hands on stuff already , kinda fun(: MATH; Mr HOHOHO:D still love him la, so weird nice guy. algebraaa, satisfying topic. kinda fun although i play egg game in class=.- HHAHAH. the rest nothing much. chinese still same, boring but wont sleep idk why HAHA.

People; many many new people, small people, sec ones but they seem sooo young ahah. some cute people, pampered too haha. Liz, well wasn't really a nice week for her, but seriously, personal feelings, i don agree to her decision, but her life. i don think she'll be able to have that kinda trust again although she said she will, easier said than done. but whatever! Sarah; oh well, idk how to describe her but it had been really hard for her.. idk how am i supposed to described it but i guess she's just wayy too distracted, bout the Glyn and Dana thing, well all have faults including us, cause we asked Dana bout it and it made her wanna say more? idk. but hmmm. but i just hope things will settle down soon(:

Me; SUNBURNT! FREAKING UGLY TANNED LINES ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): hahah, went to help out east coast park ic under the hot hot sun, wet wet rain and end up with a red red face): ): ): ): ): ): ): tsk! hahah then went camp fire, was okay la, just not properly planned LOL then watch some ppl act-.- haiya. what an ass! but idk why im reacting like that! but im not green! seriously! whatever i planned not to care like seriously!:D hopefully maybe just smile when i see. haha.im just way stupid. i'm sorry if i had misintepreted you or whatsoever la.! sorry if i said untrue stuff la, but i'm seriously irritated! but now i don wanna care, i still don hate you but i don care. argh i cant explain la. whatever!anyway today, Daisy tan carnival , earned 80bucks HOHOHO! hahah. just the morning shifts(: hahah! so lucky me. fun, i think i've improved, Eric(umpire coach) said i had a good run(: i listened to his golden advices, he's so nice haha! kkk thats all im lazy. soo tired!

OH OH AND I BOUGHT LIZ HER PREZZZIE:DD AND SHARED JERALDINE'S WITH SYAZANA:D WEEEEE

Im gonna check in tmr at 2! so this is prob the last post before i check in and come home next friday! hohoho! i'm kinda excited for school to start but i'm still in holiday mode , how?! hahah. i'll adjust soon i hope hahha. waking up at 6 for morning training i think thats the saddest part)))): oh well, i chose this route HAHA. kkk. i haven't done chinese so difficult, i can't concerntrate anyway so i guess i wont do it although its right in front of me-.- .. okkk! bye bye home and hello school! :D

starbucks @bugis. we spent first hour of 2010:D          starbucks <3 Vikki <3   and and i willl keep my bear :D hohoho

HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAVE A GREAT 2010 TO ALL LOVE YOU ALL!:D

hey hey! all the best in everything you ppl do:D i'm ready for this wonderful year ahead:D

o.o i started my day feeling extremely lousy, crushed. i feel so dumb, betrayed. but at least i know there was a period where it was true. haha i believed you so easily, still don't know why-.- i kinda convinced now. im hurt enough. but its okay cause school is gonna start . i'm gonna be busy, yes i will be. And thats good! so i won't think and time will let it fade. i have faith in myself now. haha i'm motivated? yeah, for my team and future. haha, its shocking but im officially wanting school to start! i wanna go for lessons, i wanna be in boarding, i wanna play netball! i wanna be with my friends! where i will be happy most times! where i will not be alone! i want school. i want 2010! i have so much to achieve this 2010. its gonna be a meaningful year for most i guess. (: 2009 is gonna pass in less than 2 days? i wanna put everything behind and have a good year . this is kinda the first time i'm looking forward to New Year!But i really really want it! yes! i want! I wanna play netball, enjoy it. We want to win?! So what if we are sports school, we are still human afterall, sports school means must win? means we are the best ? no we have limits to what we can be too! (: so don try look down on us. haha. we are nice ppl too. hoho. kkkk im gonna do workoutO.o ahahha. tata

P.S i had an ice cream and i felt better:D

NO MORE TRAINING TIL SCHOOL STARTS:D :D :D :D YAY:D hahah . happpyy! today did court work! ahhh im looking forward to 2010! i really wanna play well:D i wanna do umpire stuff for carnivals so many things to do, to get , to aim for! And  Amelia from Crescent Girls is coming in joining our team, she's kinda cute. haha. Oh and i kinda love my message tone like style only hahah.kk im gonna try enzoy the rest of hols hahah no more hw. doubt im doing lol! (:

Zzzz i'm bored. i don feel good now, very shitty); ); ): ahhhhhhhhh.anyway i went  to 313 today with Vik Na and liz. was kinda fun(: but i misssssssseddddddddd it hohohoho.-.- ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. friendly-ed with clemanti twon.63-3 we won. Zzz had cramps , pain man! -.- kk thats all , lazyy..

Argh!! i freaking miss you , i hate myself): ): damn it i miss you and i don wanna tell you. effffffff): ): ):

I watched SHERLOCK HOLMES today!! AHAHAHA so nice but some parts catch no ball-.- talk to fast haha. i wanna watch again to catch the ball. LOL haha oh and went with 12 ppl ; Ryo, Louis, Dong Chul(Kanta look alike(:) , Sunny , Yie Xiang, Vikki , Liz, Dayanara, Qi Qi, Jannelle and Sarah.S HAHA was fun so long didnt see them haha. then Liz had to go home cause her mom thn went to the bridge i've been wanting to go this year with all the guys plus vikki sit at some random spot play truth or dare hahha.  Fun la. Lou and his funny Questions and dares. Dong chul's reply, what did you do to a girl (think he don really understand ) then he say " i SMS her?"  then i LOL-ed damn cute hahah! Lou and Co with their sick questions bout musturbating and humping railings like wth-.- hahah but damn cute la.and lou licked curry sauce on floor for a dare-.- sick but ya haha. tmr game with clementi town better go sleep kk bye:D

Hi! im olivia:D LOL-.- sorry i am farrr----king bored LOL haven stepped out of house this whole day la-.- cant be more bored. kacauing my brother(Manfred FERNANDO Wu ) the whole time. hings like posting random shit on his fb wall asking him to reply when he's right beside me with his mac-.- yes im crazy,boooored!-.- night: watch drama maybe lol ohoh i actually did math 10 /15 question i guessed most-.- damn stress lol  kkkkk im bored

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

hey there! hope you will have a wonderful christmas this year!(: HOHOHO!:D hahaha i tried senfing to as many ppl as i can la. but fail so argh nvm! hhaha im so glad i heard you you you! ahah my christmas is gonna be boring): hahaha i miss you you you ): hahaah. my plans were with you you you! LOL ahhaahahaha. take care ppl! nights!

Interesting! its the eve n im home doing home programme-.- so god damn fun -.- argh so boring la!!! so lonely ): ): hahahha.blah, its just another day for me. lol few months back i had great plans bout this christmas and New Year but not anymore.): hahaha! okay la , Don't emo-.- haha. christmas eve dinner(: i still have haha.at home sweet home (: this year, had past really fast maybe cause its Sports school hahah .always the same old thing , so well plan-ed haha . home programme. zzz ...i missing alot of things all over again, primary school days and those days. Oh man! when can this stop.Zzzz-.-

hahhaa i love my profile pic i find it nice hahahhahahaha. this year i hardly have pic of myself eh i like this one LOL